It is no surprise among my family and friends that I do not like change. Change itself is super good, but the unknown to me brings me a lot of anxiety and my need for control takes over. Having a baby has a lot of change that comes along with it. The unknown of when, how, and all of the other little details had me trying to control other things in my life that had nothing to do with the baby... just because I needed something to hold on to. I made lists for the house of to-do's and acted like they were life or death situations and cleaned areas of our home that had NEVER been touched. I planned out our weekends down to the minute for weeks and many of other things.
It was really until the last month of pregnancy that I began to sit still in the midst of all of the change. I really felt the overwhelming desire not to control anything and let God be in control. These verses really helped me through those last few weeks.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. Psalm 18:2
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:6-8
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:21-23
